And so I write...

Well...there's not too much going on here..I am fixing to go to my sis in law's to babysit my little Jacob...My Stephanie and Doug are still with there grandmother, and my Libby is still with me..God..please give me patience with that child...lol...she really tries me...she really does...And lets see...Jeremy and Josh went out four wheeling w/ their neighbor Kenneth and his daughters...so they are gonna have a fun day...
I have to say that Jeremy and Elizabeth are HELL together...when ever they are at their grandmothers house together, all they do is fight...they bitch at each other, tattle on each other and generally really piss everyone off together...now neither one is at grandma's...and she has a nice peaceful week...lol...So, I go to Bear's house with Libby, and he wants her to spend the night...UGH!!!!! Those two kids, I swear...they don't get along, but for some odd reason, they don't know what to do with out each other...I can see them when they are teenagers, and on....They are gonna be the best of friends, and I love to see it all play out...I know I bitch, but I am a mom....that's what I do best...(besides drink COFFEE...heheheh) but watching the two of them grow from the time the trips were new born, is an extreme emotional high for me...It amazes me...
I don't have much family on my side...I have a mom and sister who live together in Indiana and I am not close to them...especially my mother...there is alot of bad feelings there, and I have really tried to be forgiving and yada yada..but I truly don't LIKE her...as a person, a mother, or the wife she was to my dad...My sis..well we were close growing up...but she got married and pregnant with my first neice...then moved out of state...after I had given that little girl my whole heart...she was ripped from me, and I didn't get it...I was only 16...her husband was a born in Kentucky white trash redneck..and I mean that bad..lol...then they had another daughter, who I don't even know...then my sis decides she's a lesbian, leaves while her husband and kids are on a vacation....and just is gone...How do you get past that???? She left her kids...they were 8 and 10 at the time...do you think they can get over something like that??? Well..I can't...and I have tried..we talk...but its different...
I have two older sisters from when my dad was married before my mom...and one of them is the one I am the closest too...Susie Q I call her...She lives in upstate New York, and we talk often...I also had a brother who passed away 5 years ago, because he decided to drink his life away...What a waste...he was my hero growing up...I was just a little girl..and he was this older brother...and he was cool....rock music, long hair...even drugs...but I just thought he was wonderful...but we never talked again after my mom decided one day to move to florida...out of the blue...I was 13...and I never talked to my brother again....
I guess the whole point is...I love watching my kids grow up with so much family around...Loving family, that is....All our kids are around the same age...Stephanie's best friend is her cousin Christopher, who is one month younger than her...at school, they hang out together and eat lunch together with Chris's one brother Cory...so you see my meaning...they are together every day...And chris and cory's brother Casey and my son Douglas are the best of friends, tho they don't go to the same school...they hang on weekends at their grandmas....The odd ones out are the two who are with my ex sis in law....Danielle and Jake...because their mom and dad decided not to be a part of the family while they were young...welll..we try..but it's not the same..Jake and Elizabeth are two weeks apart in age...and I drive Jake to school everyday...He and Lib are in the same class at school....and they are starting to have a decent relationship....and I try to talk to Danielle at least once a week..on the nextel's...lol...she's 11 going on 12 this June...But its a work in progress...and I think its coming along..Then there's the trips...lol...Josh hero worships my son Doug...anywhere Doug is...Josh will be attached to his hip...My son, I have to say...I'm proud of him...he is so patient with those boys...he plays video games with them...watches sponge bob with them..and he hates sponge bob...and Jacob...well what can I say?? Sometimes I watch Doug with that little guy and it brings tears to my eyes...I don't think I have ever said that Jacob also has a feeding tube....My son will feed that little guy, take out all the stuff to tube feed him, and he just DOES it....I don't know if at 13 I could've done that...and for him, its no big deal..I guess when you don't have any choice you just do, without thought...but it tugs at this momma's heart everytime...I think having Jacob has really taught my kids alot more than I ever could...He has taught them patience, unconditional love....the awfulness of kids and adults alike being ignorant about a handicapped child...I don't know...I am amazed at this family...and I am so blessed that I am apart of it all....
I know I have kinda rambled...it happens first thing in the morning for me...sitting here, thinking about my day...drinking my coffee...lol...(that one's for you D) and just basically thanking God that this is my life...that I married into a wonderful but disfunctional family....lol....
As for the rest of my thoughts...Hmmmm...well Chuck...this is for you....The weather here right now is 50 degrees..foggy...but the sun will shine later with a High of 70 degrees...Sports...hmmmm NOT...lol...news...well...this is a boring place, so no breaking news at this point...lol...and DIAYAH!!! I shot Juan Valdez....he just stood there with that damn donkey..and wouldn't MAKE the damn coffee...ergo...DUNKIN DONUTS RULES!!! teach him to not make my damn coffee...hehehehehhe

I hope everyone has a great day...I am off to spend the morning with my Jacob...and, that, my friends...is another look into my life....

:)

TV Tag...lol

I got this from Chuck...hey Chuck...lol...I love TV, so I figured what the hell...not a difficult one, and you don't have to if you don't want to...lol

1. How much TV do you watch?
I watch entirely too much t.v...from the time I wake up, til I fall asleep...

2. What is your favorite type of programming?
I love the reality shows...Biggest Loser, Survivor, Bachelor...plus many others..

3. What is your favorite TV show?
I can NOT miss Las Vegas, Medium, Lost, Survivor Nanny 911...need I go on?? LOL

4. Do you watch a TV show from beginning to end, or are you a flipper?
I watch the whole show, but I AM a flipper during commercials..which drives my husband totally insane...he will take away the remote...:( Party pooper

5. Could you give up TV for a month?
I absolutely could NOT give it up...not even a day...my soaps are on every day, for God's sake...lol...maybe on weekends, but thats when I watch cooking shows...lol

Anyways...thanks for that one Chuck...
Hey chuckleheads...thought I would through this out...I entered Chucklehead into Yahoo search...did you know...a chucklehead (Just one of many definitions...lol) is a CATFISH?? called the CHUCKLEHEAD CAT!!! Go fricken figure...ah well...I guess it could be worse...one other definition out of many said "asshole"...I'm thinkin that aint us...lmao...
HEHEHEHEHHEHE
Have a great day!!!

:) Just me

Okay...it's finally over...

Well...let me just say THANK YOU GOD!!! I made it thru it....and it is now finally over...hehehhehe...I made it!!! I really don't know how, but I did it...The kids were happy with what they got...and this was actually the first year they woke US up, instead of the other way around...they woke us at 5:30 a.m...oh god...and dunkin donuts was NOT open, of course, but smart cookie that I am, I had bought a box of Joe, on the night before, to get us thru...So, I got up, heated up my DD coffee, and the kids went to town...like I said, they did not get much, but they were very happy with what they DID get...so...on to my sis in laws...didn't get any presents for any of my nieces and nephews...felt like shit about that, let me just tell you, but with all those kids and presents flying, no one even noticed...hehehhehe...so, I lucked out on that one...my one nephew...bear...he was the counter this year....he counted how many he had versus how many everyone else got, and had a little meltdown when he thought the others got more than he did...but they really didn't, they were just slower at opening than he was...little shit...but he's only six, what ya gonna do?? Made it thru dinner and then packed up and went home....thank you, thank you...hehhehehe....did I say how happy I am that its finally over??...then we are driving home and smart ass Husband of mine says.."gee babe....only 365 days til next christmas..."...I truly could have kicked him in the head..but thought that would be alittle dangerous, as we were driving...lol.....
Any how...so now what...lol...I really will be glad when the kids go back to school..then I know that this holiday truly is over...I know, I'm never happy..but let me just say, that I want it to be totally over...hehehhe

Now, I'm going to talk about someone...and its not someone I like at all...lol..my brother in law's girlfriend...PATTY...and yes...I say her name like its a curse word...I know that Hate is a strong word...and all that..you shouldn't say anything if you can't say something nice..yada yada...screw that...this is MY blog, and she nor anyone else for that matter, doesn't even know I have this blog...so I can say what I want...and besides, she knows I don't like her

So..My brother in law was married for 13 years to a very good friend of mine. I never thought that they should get married because he is a cheater...And my thought is, once a cheater, always a cheater...But he supposedly loved her, and she truly loved him...plus, she was pregnant, and felt that it was what should be done...Its a long story, their marriage, and our relationship as a family...But, needless to say, things happened and he and she decided not to be a part of this family anymore...Never spoke to his family for anything, birth, deaths, anything...then one day...they decide that they want to be a part of the family again...welll...its been hard...feelings were hurt, and his mother and brother (my husband) were the most hurt by it all...but anyways, they came back....about a month after all that...He and his wife decided to build a new house and she quit her job to stay home and be with the kids...and let me say there were a lot of kids....He has 5...yes 5 children from previous relationships....and then his two w/ the wife...three of those other kids are a part of his life, the other two kids were not in his life but he paid child support...anyways..I digress...so...they move into the new house, she has stopped working and is playing mommy...so one week goes by...and his cell phone rings at 6:30 in the morning...while he is in the shower...she answers it...guess who it is??? PATTY...the other woman...yep...he was cheating with her...and Patty decided to let her know...how nice...
So, long story, I know...but it has to be set up...lol...needless to say, after one week in the new house, wife packs her stuff and goes home to her mother, with her two kids...his boys go back to their mother...and my bro? well..he moves in w/ Patty, and plays house w/ her and her three girls...now they live together still...and she is well...let me just say I don't like her...I really did try to give her a chance...hubby says its family, and we have to support him..even if we don't agree with what he's done....so, I did try...but I truly don't like her...I don't like the way she treats my neice and nephews...I don't like the way she treats her own kids...and not for nothing, I personally don't think it will last...he cheats...thats what he does....so, why like her, or her kids, when they are all going to be gone?? And I feel so bad for her girls, cuz they love him like a real dad, as their's is dead.....so they will be the ones who get hurt the most...and I don't like him either, for doing what he always does....ahhhhhhh....what can I say..and to make it all worse, is that im still friends with my ex sis in law...and I know that doesn't help...but she was sooo devestated when all that went down...and I was there for her, and we became close again....but I can't pinpoint what it is exactly that I don't like about this girl, other than the way her and my Bro did what they did, and also, just her whole attitude...she seems very abusive to her children, tho, I have no proof of that...she belittles my ex sis in law to her own children, and tells my neice that she is fat...she is a crude and rude person...and I think that in itself is why I don't like her...but my point of all this (yes, I did have a point, ya know...lol) is that on Holidays, she tries to act like they are the best couple in the world, the best parents etc...and she really isn't...nor is he...believe me, I count him in all of this too....but I look in his face on these days...in his eyes...and he is miserable...He is not that happy dad he always used to be...even when I knew he didn't love his ex anymore, he was still happy in his eyes, when he was with his kids...now he is not...Does she not see that?? Does she not know that he is miserable with her? that he knows he ruined his life for a piece of ass??? and he says that he isn't happy..but he did it, and has to live with it...but the thing is...everyone has to live with the mistake he made...to watch his little girl, who doesn't live with him anymore..see him live with three little girls and take him over as their dad, while she gets treated like shit...and his other boys...well...I don't know...they are older, but they miss their step mom...Patty said they were getting married on Halloween..that passed...and they didn't get married....He says he will never marry her...she says he will....its truly just one big mess....
Wow...I really wrote alot...and hopefully, I haven't bored you to death, but I had to get that out there...that I don't like this girl...that I wish this had never happened..that he didn't throw his family away...that he thinks kids are disposable, that he planted his seed all over the county...that he had to be a slut...and that of all people he had to pick her...cuz I knew someday there would be a "her"..just I guess my question is...why HER????
Okay...i'm done...lol....I don't think I got it all out... and I am sure there will be more to come about that woman....but for now.... I am done...lol
I hope you all have a great day...I will blog again another time...

:) Just me

A story...by Steph

As I promised, my daughter Stephanie wrote a Christmas story for you all to enjoy..

I hope everyone has a very Merry Christmas...and I will talk to you all soon
:)

A Christmas Story
Once upon a time, there were two puppies. One as dark as night, who called herself Midnight, and the other as white as the snow, who called himself Snow.
These puppies were very special They were special because they were born on Christmas Eve.
"Come on Snow!" said Midnight, pouncing on her brother. "You take tooo long!"
They were heading towards the big Christmas tree in the middle of the city, hoping to find a home.
"Midnight!", whined Snow, "I'm going as fast as my little legs can carry me!"
Midnight ran ahead of her brother.
"Meow", came a feeble little sound, inside a crummy old box.
"What's that?", asked Snow, sticking his head into the box.
"I'm not a that, I'm a HER!" came the voice from inside the box.
"And I am a kitten."
She stepped out of the box. She was many colors. She had brown, grey, black.
"I'm Kaley. And you are???" she asked.
"I'm Midnight, and this is my brother, Snow", replied Midnight.
Kaley looked at them. "Where are you two going?? Can I come with you, too?" she asked. Her tail swished back and forth as she asked, while her whiskers twitched.
"we are going to the big tree in the middle of the city. We want to try to get a home!" said Snow, walking towards the tree again.
"OH!! I want to come too," said Kaley, following the two puppies.
They continued walking. They came to a big road.
"Do we cross it?" asked Kaley.
"Well, yeah...." said Midnight, stepping into the road. Suddenly...a car came speeding down the road!!
"Ohhhhhhh what was THAT?" asked Midnight, running back to the alley where they found Kaley.
"I think that was one of those things called a car" said Kaley.
She looked back towards the road.
"We have to run acrossed it", said Snow.
"It's ACROSS it, not acrossed," said Kaley, running to the other side of the road.
"That was easy!" she said. "Now you try!"
Snow and Midnight crossed after her. They both agreed that it was very easy indeed.
"Snow! Wait up!!" called the two girls as they ran to catch up with him.

The night wore on. The three little babies trudged on together.
"Kaley, I'm tired. Lets rest here for a little while" said Midnight. It was snowing and it was getting dark. They couldn't see where they were, but did find a doorstep to cuddle up on.

"MOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMM!" said the little girl as she stepped out side. She has almost stepped on the three furry shapes covered in snow.
She picked up the three of them and carried them inside the house.
Her mother came over to see what the little girl had.
"Susan, that is two puppies, and a little kitten. They have tags on them."
"We do???" asked Midnight, looking at the other two. "You guys!! WE have TAGS on us! I wonder what they say?"
"Wow, the black puppy sure is noisy," giggled susan. "What do the tags say?" she asked.
"Mandy, do we have any more batteries?" asked a man in a bathrobe.
"Rick, Look...PUPPIES!! and a little Kitten!", said Mandy, Susan's mom.
Rick picked up Midnight and read the tag. It says...
To the Smiths...Please take care of Midnight, Love Santa

Rick read the rest of the tags. "The white puppy is called Snow, and the kitten is Kaley...like calico for calico cat. Cute..." he said.
"I guess you got what you wished for Sue", said her mom.
Midnight pounced on Snow and Kaley. "You hear that??? WE HAVE A HOME!!! We have a home!"
Snow yawned. "I'm cold", he whined.
"OH Snow, " said Kaley and Midnight together, laughing.
"Can we keep them?" asked Susan.
"Of course," said Mandy and Rick.

"Merry Christmas," Susan whispered into their fur...."Merry Christmas!!!"

THE END

I'm updating, already...lol

So, for the last hour, my daughter has been trying to post new pics from Disney up...but for some reason, when my sis in law sends me pics from her puter, she can't seem to make them upload...go figure..she's gonna call my sis in law, and tell her how to send the pics properly...lol...

So anyways..Yes, I started and finished my Christmas shopping...I don't know why I do this to myself every year...I think maybe sometimes I'm hoping some one will send me a small fortune in the mail, so I don't have to stress myself..again, this did not happen...WHY??? ahhhhhh well...what ya gonna do??? This is the time of year that I kick myself in the ass for not having a job, or at least trying to start shopping earlier in the year...My husband gets a very nice bonus..they have a savings plan they do that he contributes 75 a month, and then the boss matches it at Christmas..so he had a 1500 dollar bonus...but since we were so broke, I had to pay bills with it...oh GOD it sucks...I feel like I didn't get shit for my kids..and the stupid thing is that they will be happy with what ever they get...As a matter of fact, Steph actually shopped with me, so there will be no surprises for her, but she had alot of fun shopping with me, and it was nice to have her with me...but she still doesn't know about the Hot Topics gift...she knows she got something from there, just doesn't know what it is...lol..she actually wrapped all her gifts when we got home...Sometimes I don't know how I got so lucky with my kids...they are not at all materialistic...and they know that we are poor...its just how it is for us...but they are so good about it...they don't get disappointed with what they get, and are actually surprised they get as much as they do...

I don't mean to sound down and I am not looking for pity..lol...This is the life I chose, knowing that times would be hard...no education, stay at home mom..but the plus side of it all is we all love each other very much...I just tend to feel sorry for myself at this time of year...We don't use credit cards, so the good thing is that everything is paid for, and when its over, it's over...I don't know...I must sound pretty pathetic...I'm sorry for that...I do know that we are blessed with three healthy kids, and I look at my sis in law, with my little Jacob, and sometimes, its so hard for her...and all of us that love him...but its something that she struggles with on a daily basis...Cerebral palsy is a bitch...it really is..then I see his sweet little face and I'm just so thankful that he is here, handicapped or not...other times I see him...watching his brothers playing and running, as he sits in his wheelchair, and it just breaks my heart...Why him?? Then I try to remember that he is our little angel....I really think our lives are so much better because of him...with him...he keeps us grounded...and he shows love so unconditionally...and I think...Thank you God...thank you for giving us Jacob, just the way he is...

What a downer, huh??? Still...I don't think as bad as some of diayahs...lol...I don't know...I think come Monday, I will be a much happier girl...I will be so thankful to be past Christmas...and hoping to God, that I do NOT bounce a check...cuz if that doesn't happen, that will be MY Christmas miracle...lol

Anyways...have a great day...I will be reading the story from Sean..which was beautiful by the way, mr man.....I also wanted to say that at this time, I am thankful to you Sean, Red, Bri, Diayah...my Chucklehead friends...and of course, Gaelin and anyone else who reads my blog...

My wonderful Chuckleheads....you have no idea how much you make my day....to know that there are people who consistently try to make me laugh....its such a blessing..I know I've said that I don't have many friends...My life is pretty much my family, and I don't seem to make time for true friends...but at this time of year, I think its nice to know that I can call you guys my friend....I love to hear about your lives, and I love to be a PART of your lives, even if its only thru a keyboard, computer screen and a messenger....I am truly happy to have you guys...and I just want to thank you....So, my new blogger buddies...thank you...and I hope you have the Merriest Christmas you can possibly have....I will think of you Christmas morning....and hope you all have a wonderful time...With any luck...I will talk to you guys soon....

Love you guys:)

Just me....

dammit...I got tagged...thanks red...lol

Here are the rules: “The first player of this game starts with the topic. “five weird habits of yourself,” and people who get tagged need to write an entry about their five weird habits as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next five people to be tagged.

Everyone understand the rules? Here goes nothing....

1. I make sure I wake up at least two hours before I have to be anywhere in the morning, even tho it only takes me 45 minutes to get ready....

2. I program the TV shows I watch a week in advance, in case I forget...even tho I watch the same thing every week

3 I wear my glasses in the shower when I shave my legs...welll geez...I cant see without them...give me a break....lmao I know...get contacts....

4. I never ever go with out shoes or socks....even with my p'j's on....talk about fricken hysterical......my hubby likes that one...and my nephews (the triplets) freaked out the first time they saw my toes, cuz I guess they thought I didn't have any....lmao

5. I can not...and I mean I literally can NOT smoke a cigarette first thing in the morning without having at least half a cup of coffee...why don't I quit??? yeah, easier said than done....

Okay....well thats nice and embarrassing....lmao...way too much personal info, huh??? now to tag....well I don't know...cuz my tags are the same as Reds...all my friends are her's...so...here goes...Sean, Bri..Diayah...Red...and I will give mike a break and choose another... Gaelin...

Pics of The Family

I finally Got pictures of the Family...But Im making my daughter do it for me ;)

Thats Stephanie-16 (for thoses who dont know, Thats the oldest and my daughter)

Thats Doug-13, The Middle Child

This is elizabeth-10, shes the youngest...


Thats my Nephew (hes one Month YOUNGER then my Daughter...)

I redid my page....what do ya think??

So, I made my daughter fix my blog...few little tweaks and twists...I wonder which, if any of you, can figure out what is different...I know Diayah, that it takes you a little while to notice things...lol....j/k....but if you don't notice anything, try refreshing your page...took me a minute, myself...cuz as we all know...I am a COMPUTET IDIOT!!!!! Heheheheheheheh.....if you have this page in your favorites, redo it there, also....cuz, I didn't...and when I went to the page, it was the same ole crap....anyways...tomorrow...my brilliant daughter will be adding pics...yeah...(I have to say brilliant....she's watching me type...lol)
Have a great day

:) Just me


So...my soccer coaching career lasted a total of twenty minutes....the game was rained out...so I guess that's kinda good...they didn't lose...:) Bear was very happy, cuz he was cold, and didn't want to play...again...lol...he is a trip...joshie asked my why I was there....I was like...gee josh...I love you too..and I said, aren't I always here??? I go to all your games, don't I? He's like...oh yeah...god...gotta love the little brat...heheheh...

I had three large cups of coffee yesterday morning...but first let me say in my defense that jacob tossed my second cup on the field...and rather enjoyed doing it, too may I add...He's a little shit, too...lol...don't let the wheelchair fool ya...he's a pistol...we did not bring his dog Hope to the field with us the time...the field nazi's obviously can't tell the kid is in a wheelchair and she's his service dog....her banner/vest hasn't come in the mail yet...and they need "proof" that Jacob is handicapped....hmmm...wheelchair....6 years old...can't walk, or talk for that matter...but you need PROOF??? assholes....anyways....that kinda pissed me off....but thats okay...I get pissed off alot with people that are stupid...as we all know...heheheh...

So anyhow...Libby's going on her birthday trip to Disney today....she's so excited...they are doing the Disney's Very Merry Christmas Party tonite...it starts at 7 P.M. and goes til midnite....then she will have all day at the park tomorrow...kinda sucks that its her first time going and I won't get to see her, but thats okay..she'll have a good time with her grandma and aunt, and the boys....so I am happy for her...I mean, technically...she was with me when I took the other two for the first time....I was seven months pregnant....took my daughter for her sixth birthday...in July....let me just say that I DIDN'T have fun...not a great place to be in 100 degree weather and fatter than a cow....but when steph saw mickie mouse for the first time, she made me cry...it was soooo sweet....and my son was only three at the time and was afraid of all the characters...it was rather funny...hehehhehe...I know...im evil, right?....lol

So....on to my ODE TO SEAN PATRICK MOORE...or PMS as diayah likes to say...

Oh sean....Where for art tho????? Your an enigma....a ghost of a man...with women following your every word....

okay...enough....lol...my body doesn't have enough caffeine in it to totally do justice to Sean and what needs to be said...besides...his head is swelling because of us....wow...I just thought about what I just wrote....that was kinda bad, huh???? *blush blush*

Well....I guess I better go....I really want another cup of coffee...I really do...but I think that the girl who works the drive thru at Dunkin Donuts is starting to worry about me and my caffeine consumption....I will give it a rest for now...

On a side note...the girl at the drive thru is the same age as my oldest daughter, and goes to the same high school too...they are friends...my daughter said that she (the drive thru girl) is bisexual....what's up with that??? seems like all the kids at her school are either, 1, Gay, 2, Bi,...3 just came out of the closet, or 4 going to come out of the closet.....I just don't understand....how can these kids know WHAT they are....I think maybe I'm just old, no??? I mean, Im not against gays...my sister is a lesbian....(tho it still freaks me out...hehehehheh) but I am definatly not a homophobic...or whatever its called...I just think at 16...well....I don't know...maybe I should just shut up...It doesn't affect me or my life...so its none of my business...but ????? Is it Just Me?????

:)

I think I might just be insane....

Let me just say that my fricken kids are driving me totally insane....Today is their last day of school due to winter break, or whatever they are calling it these days...christmas break, winter holiday...whatever....So, anyways...let me just finish my thought...yes, diayah...im jacked up on caffeine....hehehheheh
SO....of course, at school....party party party...coke, candy...you know that ole holiday routine...stuff the kids full of sugar and caffeine...then send them home to me....THANK YOU!!!! SO, they get home,...and what do they do???? start fighting...why can't they just fricken get along??? even for two seconds, and I might just be happy...(probably not, but I feel I should say that...)
See...this is why I ship them to my mother in law on the weekend....I am ready to pull out my hair now....She is a saint....and I truly mean that....I have said it before how she takes alllllll her grandkids on vacations and weekend...she LOVES to spend time with them, and she feels that some day they will out grow her, so she takes what she can now....I mean really....what in hell would I do if I didn't have her????? I truly think that I would be in a padded cell somewhere...twidling my thumbs and blowing raspberries every five seconds....

Do you see what I am trying to say????
Yepppppperrr...I am fricken losin it....

K....I think I MIGHT feel a little better....I had to vent here, cuz if I scream at them anymore, I might lose my voice, and that would just piss me off...

And my kids LIKE me??? I have to say that at this moment in time, after screaming my fool head off at them, that I really feel like the worst mother in the world....I know that I shouldn't yell so much...I do know that...but I can't seem to help it...Its moments like this that I pray for Valium...but no luck....goood grief....

Well....thanks for letting me vent...sorry im a little off...but good news, I do fell better for it....

P.S. Diayah...you should see my fingers fly!!!!!

:) Have a great day people...thank you soooo much for listening to me bitch...and I think my kids thank you, too...

:) Just me.....

My week...

First let me say Happy Monday....not...lol...I hope you all had a great weekend...mine was okay...Saturday I had the boys' soccer game...they played really good this time...But they lost 2-3....Jeremy decided he would actually run and kick the ball this time around...joshie was a runnin fool as always...they were so cute...me and their mom was yelling like a bunch of freaks...leave it to my Bear to come over during a break and tell us to PLEASE stop yelling...your embarassing me!!! Go figure...lol...needless to say...we didn't listen...Sunday I did absolutely nothing but watch movies all day...rained all day, which I like, but hubby was pissy cuz he couldn't go for a ride...He seemed to live thru it, tho...cuz I know he left for work this morning...so I gather he's still alive...See? Rain never hurt anyone..lol
This week is one of my least favorite of the year...The kids have half days on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday...I really hate half days...they serve no purpose at all....the problem is my son's school does NOT do half days, which is fine by me..just inconvenient with the other kids schedule...elementary and high school get out at 1:15...and my boy gets out at 2:00...good thing about that is I get to watch all of my General Hospital....lol
Today and tomorrow, I am supposed to go to my sis-in-law's to help her clean the house for Christmas, before the kids get out on break...seems pointless to me, cuz they are just gonna trash the place...but hey....who am I?? Wednesday I volunteer at my son's school, plus he's having some colonial dinner thingy that morning that I have to go to...( I know, dinner-morning...go figure). I volunteer as a lunch lady at his school..which consists of driving to the high school to pick up the lunches, drive them back to his school and serve it up...yeah....But the kids for some odd reason think Im cool...so its fun...what do they know?? hehehhehe...then Thursday, I thought I would be done, but my little one's teacher e-mailed me this morning and asked if I would come in and help make Christmas ornaments...so of course, I said I would...so looks like Friday is my one day I don't HAVE to do something...
And I am such a procrastinator....I have not shopped for Christmas at all...well..except for the T-shirts I got from that goth girl at Hot Topics...I hate when I do that....but yet, I seem to do it every year...wait til the last minute..oh well...and to top it all off, we've had to postpone the Tennessee trip...We are now going in February instead...I bet there won't even be snow then...we had to postpone it cuz of something to do with money and the lack of it at Christmas time...I don't know what we were thinkin, anyways...but it woulda been nice...I'm sure it still will be, but it won't be the same if there is no snow....
Well..I guess that's it for now....my son just called...wants to go home...he doensn't feel well....kid was fine this morning...God...he drives me insane...Cuz I personally don't believe it...but what are ya gonna do??
Have a great week...I will try to check in in the mornings...I don't go on much at night, cuz my puter is in my living room, and they all bitch when they can't see the T.V. thru me...I mean really....hehhhehehhehe

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Its just another day here....

Nothing new is going on here...Of course, we all know I have no wonderful insights either, but hey...I never said I was deep...lol
Last nite was a very quiet evening...Of course, we had the baked spaghetti for dinner...wasn't as good as I wanted it to be...but hey...never claimed to be a chef,either...lol...though hubby loves my cooking...what does he know??? He's only had my cooking for the last 20 years, so there's really nothing to compare it too...of course Libby didn't eat it....she hates spaghetti...of course she does...unless it comes in a can labled Chef Boyardee...go fricken figure...she's such a picky little shit...she heated up taco's leftover from her birthday dinner...well I hope it was from then...you never really know in my fridge...(note to self.....ask Lib how her stomach feels today...oopsie)
The other kids ate everything on their plates...I have to say its nice as the kids get older, they complain less about the food...I mean just ten years ago, they would only eat hot dogs and the occasional hamburger....go figure..:)
And then we all sat on the couch and listened to music...It may sound boring, I know..but that is something we don't usually do around here...in the car, yes...but not at home...kids usually listening to their MP3 players...still on the couch with us...but in their own worlds....Last nite was different...our cable company has music on demand stations...so we were listening to them....We flipped between Today's Country, and Hit List....it was really insane, but so much fun....if we didn't know a song that was playing on one, we switched to the other...and like I've said before, Im not much into country, but there was a time when I was...and they were playing some songs I know....and funnily enough, so did the hubby...the bad ass harley driving hard core old rock listener...lol...The kid that is his helper at work has somehow converted the hubby into a country fool...lmao...he knew the words better than I did...lmao...again, sounds very mundane...but for me, it was sooo nice...
I love when we act like a family that loves each other...don't get me wrong...we all do.....but like I said....we all have such a routine...it was nice to break away from that for awhile...and just be silly...
Then 8 oclock came....no more fun and games....Survivor is on for god's sake...lol..We are a family entirely tooooo wrapped up in our t.v. shows...but I can honestly say that no matter what's on...we all sit together and chat...Even the teenagers...I know, I know...but I think they actually might LIKE us a little...lol....
Anyways...enough....gotta get doing something around here...what, I don't know...but I think it will probably be me, yahoo messenger...and collapse...my favorite game...not really...just addicted....
Have a great day!!

:)

Welcome to my world

So, I'm driving my kids to school this morning...trying to think of something deep and meaningful to write about...guess what I came up with??? Nada!!
Of course, it goes without saying, that I was again behind that phantom tiny person driving an old beat up cadillac...WHY!!! I know I have bitched about this before, but seriously..I cant take it....
Let me explain how my morning goes...The alarm clock goes off at 6. I get out of bed at 6:15....This morning, its raining...again...but I don't really mind...get in the truck and go to dunkin donuts for my morning cup of coffee...Let me add that no, I do NOT make my own coffee...I've tried..can't do it...so anyway....I now have coffee after sittin in line at DD for 20 mins...but its oh so worth it...now get back home...gotta get the kids up for school....oldest needs to shower...will she get up?? hell no...not until I threaten bodily harm...In the meantime, my youngest Libby is of course awake...she starts with me right away...as she does every fricken morning of my life....I tell her don't mess with me, Im still drinking my coffee...she doesn't listen.. then its time to wake up the boy child...He is by far the easiest person in the world to wake up...no prob....Soooo...now the whole house is awake...The little one is roaming around out front...playing with all the stray cats in my neighborhood....yes, I know its 7 oclock in the morning, and its raining...I said I haven't finished drinking my coffee...she can play as long as she's not in my face...anyways
The oldest one is out of the shower now....Its 20 after 7....we leave the house at 7:25...yeah, she's not ready....My son? good to go...
Finally....7:29....Out the door....K....first stop...my son's school...he starts at 7:50 and is in the 8th grade...okay, so he's out...on to the next stop...back by my house to get oldest on the bus....Her bus comes at 7:50....k...now back home...Libby needs to get ready for school....she has to be there by 8:50....But not that simple, cuz I gotta go BACK close to my son's school to pick up one of my nephews who is in the same grade and class as Libby.....K....good to go again...Lib's ready...lets go get Jake...god forbid, I get there and he actually be ready.....and lo and behold, this morning HE'S READY!!!!! Yeah.....So....on to the elementary school....naturally, the phantom driver appears, oh, right about now....now the kids start in....Hey...Who's driving that car???? Check that out!!! and on and on it goes until I get them to school...Luckily this morning, the cell phone didn't ring...cuz usually about the time I'm getting them to school, I pass my sis in law taking the triplets to school...and its CoCo being yelled out the window at me.,...Gotta love my boys....:)
So finally....everyone is where they need to be....Gotta go to the grocery store now...hubby wants baked spaghetti for dinner...geezzzzzzz.......Great..so now I gotta go there....buy the crap to fix dinner....wait in line, cuz you know there is only one cashier working, and Im not the only moron in the store checking out...all at the same time....
K...Now im home...gotta check my email....Done....check for comments on yesterdays blogs...you guys, I gotta say, really make my day....I laugh so hard at them sometimes, but I love it....I gotta say to Bigred...you frickin kill me....When I go to other blogs, all of sudden your there...leaving some fricking comment to single men....I frickin love that!!! It's so random and out of the blue, yet there you are...travelocity.com....oh lord, I snorted my coffee on that one...I really really wish you would start writing in your blog, cuz that would be one to read, Im sure!!!!
K....So I digress...
Now, after getting everything ready for dinner to get started, I look at the clock...goood lordddd...It's time to start getting ready to pick all the kids up again....UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....First the boy child....then the elementary kids....then the oldest....no wonder my day goes by so fast....
And that, my fellow bloggers....is a look into my life....
Aint it GRAND??????


Have a great day everyone....
:)

Just another day

So, I did something on Monday that I thoroughly hate to do....I went shopping...and not only do I hate to shop...I hate THE MALL!!!! And I went there...oh god...I really hate shopping when people are soooo nasty...I thought Christmas was supposed to bring out the good in people??? What the hell was I thinking??? I should have had a clue when I did the unthinkable on BLACK FRIDAY!!! Yes, I went to WalMart at 4:30 in the A.M....for two t.v.'s that were on sale for 98 dollars each...w/ built in dvd players....after being thrown thru aisle after aisle...i vagely saw the electronic section, but after a little old man of about 90 crashed his cart into me, well..let me just say that I left walmart with a 20 lb bag of cat food...
The mall...wellll...I guess it coulda been worse...I went to this store..Hot Topics...let me just say that if you like Goth...this is the store for you...Me??? Not at all goth....but my daughter loves anime stuff...and tinkerbell...they had anime tinkerbell shirts there...and lord knows, I am cheap...but I spent 60 bucks on three t-shirts...I can't believe it....She better be fricken happy, thats all I can say...I kinda was scared...looking thru the shirts...all folded nice and proper...and there's me...rifling thru them...I look up...the sales girl was like 6 feet tall....Jet black hair, down to her ass....Big time white face...the whole nine yards...black eyes..black lips....black clothes....she had friggen black fish net on her arms....down to her hands, which wound around her middle finger...I tell ya, I got THE look....but then she smiled, and said...no problem...she helped me find the shirts I needed....I guess I shouldn't have judged...but she scared the hell out of me...(And let me add that my daughter doesnt dress at ALL like that, she just liked the shirts)...needless to say...it was quite an experience...I don't think I will go back, tho...to the mall, that is...Just wayyyyy to much drama there...I hate drama.
So, like I said before...yesterday (Tuesday) was my little one's birthday...It went okay, I think...she seemed happy...she got what she asked for, which, by the way, wasn't all that much...We got her a Barbie head thing...you know to style the hair...and p.j.s...and a comforter set for her bed...all purple..her favorite color..slippers...a big hello kitty body pillow...which, btw, cost 25 bucks....earrings, outfit...Baskin Robbins ice cream cake and her favorite dinner of Taco's....She was happy...and I'm broke...I love it....lol
Well, I guess that is all I have to say for now....My son is home from school sick today...upset stomach...(Maybe the taco's didn't agree w/ him????)...So, I'm gonna go play a game of collapse on my messenger...hope you all have a great day
:)

Nothing new to talk about...

I really don't have anything exciting to discuss...I don't even think I have any good ramblings...lol...so I'm just typing...whatever comes of it...sorry...lol
First off, I can't believe in 23 days, its Christmas.....The years are just frickin flying!!! I think that comes with age, I don't know, but I DO know that I just don't like it...I think it's also because my kids are growing up,too...and really making me feel old...my little baby is going to be 10 on Tuesday...How does that happen???? I will no longer have any children in the single digit ages....good grief!!!! But when I think like that, it gives me a pit in my stomach....where did the time go??? I can honestly say that I feel soooo blessed to have been able to watch all three of my kids grow up....I did work when my oldest was a baby, but only for about a year...then I worked part time here and there...then when I got pregnant with my son, I stopped...I have worked alot of part time jobs here and there, and when my little one started school, I opened my own cleaning service...I only worked the hours my kids where at school, so I could always get them to school myself, and I was done with all my jobs by the time they were out of school....I had to close the business this past June...which is kind of another story all together...now I'm feeling a little stir crazy....I think that after the first of the year, I will start it back up again....thats something that is always good to do...someone somewhere always wants someone else to scrub their nasty toilets...ughhhh...that is one part of it all I DONOT miss!!!!
We have decided to go to Tennesee over the Christmas vacation....three nights up in a cabin in the mountains of Tenness....I hope there will be snow...my kids have never seen it before...I personally grew up in Maine, so I don't really miss it all that much, but it would be nice for a couple of days...We are going with my little family, my sister in law and her hubby, with the triplets, and my mom in law...It should definalty be rowdy...lol...my mom in law bought my nephew Jacob a boxer puppy to be trained as a seizure dog for him, who is also coming with us, her name is Hope...how appropriate...her and Jacob clicked the second they met....it really was sweet...hopefully she will train well...but they say its not an easy thing...they either can do it, or not...But boxer's are supposed to be really good for that...Jacob has small seizures alot, and sometimes, he has rather severe ones..but they usually happen right before he's waking up in the morning....But, we shall see...even if she doesn't work out as a seizure dog, he has a new best friend, and that counts for a lot...
The only bad thing about this trip is finding someone to come take care of my dogs....My two hound dogs have an acre of fenced yard to live in, and they hate being in the house, but they still have to be fed and watered..god forbid...lol...but my black lab hates it outside, so someone has to come twice a day to let her out and do her business....not for nothing, but dogs are a pain in the ass when it comes to trips...cats are much better...big bowl of food and water...a clean litter box, and they are good to go....but dogs....geez.....what was I thinkin??? Ah well...wouldn't know what to do without them....but who to get...who to get...I had my neighbor do it the last time we went away..she "accidently" left my bloodhound in the house...and she (the dog, that is) ate my couch....AHHHHHHHH!!!! She was still a puppy at the time..but my GOD!!!! I asked her (the neighbor, that is...lol) what was she thinking????? Never did get a good answer to that one.... My other neighbor is older and handicapped, so I don't think she will be up to it....well, Im sure I will think of something...lol...
Well....I really think I DID ramble, huh??? Like I said, I never know whats gonna come out of my fingers when I sit here....lol....I think thats enough for one day...and hey....click on my adds at the top of the page, would ya???? I made a whole 4.13 for the month of november....lol....well...it was a thought....I hope whoever reads this has a great day!!!!! I'm gonna try!!!!
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